Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive (hurtful) way in me, and lead me the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24
This passage has long been a favorite text I have prayed and considered. Even today, I often pray this passage before I speak in preparation of being a clean vessel for God’s service. But the truth is this verse should be a part of every believer’s daily life and spiritual vernacular. Our thoughts and expressions should say, “God, look deep within my soul, at the inner workings of my heart and mind, and reveal to me anything that is not working appropriately, and either repair it or give me the courage and ability to address it. Then take me out for a test drive to make sure that everything in me is in working order for You.”
There was a time I had the wonderful privilege of driving clunkers. On one particular occasion, I had to take my beat up jalopy in for service. Not surprisingly, after a thorough evaluation of my car and a good laugh, the mechanic made several recommendations of items that needed to be repaired. Needless to say, the cost of the repairs was of greater value than the value of my car. Unable to make such an investment, I asked him to prioritize the list and then paid him to fix what absolutely needed to be repaired so that my car would be safe and road worthy.
I think we often do the same sort of thing with God. We simply do not want to pay the price to have everything fixed in our lives so that our lives might function well for His glory (it would cost us too much to surrender). As a result, we ask and allow God to only tinker with those areas that absolutely need repair so that our lives don’t fall apart and we are not exposed for who we really are on the inside. We are looking for a band aid repair when we really need an overhaul. And of course, once the minimal repairs take place, we take our lives out for a spin until we need to come back in for additional repairs.
Now I cannot speak for anyone but myself, but there has to be a better way. And I think there is a better – higher way! My mechanic recommended a regular maintenance plan. He suggested a regular, scheduled time for an oil change, tire rotation, belt adjustment and tune up. He even explained the value and protection of such a plan. With that being said, much like with my car, I think we all could use a regular spiritual maintenance plan – and that is exactly what a daily time of solitude and introspection with God is intended to be. It is a time in which I get under the hood of my life with God and tinker around to make sure that my life is firing on all cylinders with Him, my family, my employment, my ministry and so on. It is a time to get honest with myself before God so that my life might participate in something greater than myself and of eternal importance.
God created all of us for so much more than what the majority of us are experiencing. And thankfully, He will never relent is pursuing us to pursue Him. If we will stop long enough to allow Him into our lives, He will shape and mold us into the person He created us to be.